A Contradiction

"When you need me but do not want me, then I must stay. When you want me but no longer need me, then I have to go. It's rather sad, really, but there it is."- Nanny McPhee

Every day I see how necessary my family is to my well being, my sanity, and my daily structure. I see the subtle clues that show me how necessary I am to them. I see how we connect, how we look out for each other. Yet, I still make the decision to turn away from them and search for solitude and silence instead. I'll regret the time lost one day. I'll regret the time I wasted away, but acknowledging that today, doesn't seem to impact my choices.

Talk about sabotage...