Be open

I have an urge to be brutally honest. But according to the universe it will be an awkward exchange, I’ll feel silly, and the person will think I’m weird.

So I hold my tongue and walk around thinking what affect my words would have on certain people.

Recently I’ve wanted to tell someone how much I appreciate their presence in my life. For a few days they made me feel special and worth while. They gave me the affection I was searching for. They are talented, mature, kind, and patient. They have occupied my mind for days and I’ve gone over our encounters several times in my head.

But according to the universe I’ll seem weak and obsessed. It will seem like I’m saying this with the intention of changing his mind and making him attracted to me like we’re in some sort of Disney channel movie. When in actuality all I want is to tell him that I appreciate those couple of days when he made me smile. That’s it. No hidden motive. I just want to express my thoughts.

This goes for other situations also…

For some reason we (most people) are afraid to talk about our feelings. It’s like unless we have some motive, something to change, then sharing feelings is unnecessary.

I don’t know, I’d just like to at some point be able to share my feelings with the people around me just for the hell out it. Without them thinking I have something to hide…