Hoping to act...

There are a handful of things I want to do. Priorities I’ve set for myself. However I can never do them all at the same time. One always gets in the way of the other. I would, like most college students I know, go into overdrive. Just push my body as far as possible and force myself to get it done. Unfortunately I’m fragile, I hate the word and the connotations that go along with it, but it’s true. I get sick easily and I’m always terrified that the next time will be worse than the last. So I’m watching my limits and trying to take care of myself.

The only thing left to do is set a more realistic schedule. I go to work 35 hours a week, I would love to work out 6 days a week (that’s supposed to be my routine). It would be incredibly rewarding if I could write everyday as well as read. But since that’s proven to be physically impossible and I’m on the verge of collapsing every day at work I’ve decided to tone it done. I am on vacation after all.

I hate comparing myself to my peers and realizing I do much less than they do. I’m not interning anywhere, I’m not volunteering left and right. I’m not in anyway furthering my career other than registering for classes. I’m just skating by. But the reality is I am doing something. I’m not like everyone else, and our circumstances are definitely different. So I’m going to stop comparing myself to everyone else, and just do what I can and be happy with that. I have to find my own way to success.