There's a piece missing.

I don’t even like them anymore. Sometimes I see them trying and I kinda want to make an effort but I know their affection is only temporary. They can and will freak out any moment. So lately I’ve just been indifferent. My mind has been set on that one moment where things will be slightly better, for me anyways.

I don’t think I’m one to hold grudges but I’ve held one grudge for many years, along with various opinions and recently I’ve been plotting to let it all out…in one big shout just let them know how I feel so we can stop pretending. We’re putting up this front but I know people see through it. And he may try to cover it up or sugar coat it but I won’t. I tell it like it is. I’m done hoping and wishing things get better someday. That we will somehow work it out.

Too many mistakes have been made. Too many feelings over looked. It’s time to admit that we just don’t work together…we probably never did.