Big Picture

I’m constantly stuck between fighting for my small goals and looking at the big picture. I’ve mentioned several times before that I want to get an apartment of my own. Just to have a space that is all mine. A space where I call the shots.

Yet, lately I’ve thinking I should hold it out and save up for a house. Sure I’ll be sharing it with a husband and children, but I bet it’d feel great to have a place of my own that’s long term. A place I know my grandchildren will come to visit me in. A place I’ll decorate and renovate alongside my husband…

Ahh I don’t know which is better. The 21 year old me tells me to live in the now and work as many jobs as possible to get my apartment. Yet the future mommy in me craves the white picket fence, and the front lawn and a garden….and a dog house….

I can’t have both, so I’ll choose the one that means the most to me.

Future mommy wins.