Not Worth It

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I’m slowly starting to see where I want to go in life. I want to focus more on me. I love my family and friends but quite frankly the majority of them are looking out for themselves and only adding negativity to my life. Therefore, I’m going to start paving my own path. My considerations:

Refraining from any official responsibilities at church.

  • I love my church, I love being a deacon, I love having responsibilities, but I need a break. By the end of this year I will end my term in the things I’m currently involved in. In the mean time, I’m going to consider other forms of spiritual growth.

Focusing on the arts

  • At one point I was really into cross stitching, I’ve always wanted to learn how to knit, and I wanted to draw/paint. I think I deserve to spend this summer doing those things. So the minute I graduate I’m making sure I set aside time for that.

Reading…for fun

  • I have so many books sitting in my room that I’ve been dying to read, but haven’t had the time. I even have textbooks I want to read over because they were SO interesting. So I’m narrowing down my book list to about 6-10 books for this summer.

Education

  • I’ll be studying for the GRE, looking up grad programs, applying to grad programs, and applying to jobs/internships/programs that are in the fields I’m interested in. It’s time to choose a path for SURE!

Future Planning

  • Once I get a full time job, because I WILL get a full time job, I’ll start saving. I’m going to make a plan to save enough money to move out. I’ll be wasting away a good chunk of money on rent every month but when the people you live with start holding you back it’s time to go. So I’m going to save, create a time frame, go apartment hunting, and then just go.

Express

  • There’s a lot I don’t say for the sake of keeping the peace, and avoiding confrontation. But I realize people create conflicts, cause drama, and only think about themselves most of the time, so why should I bottle up my emotions. I think it’s about time I confronted my family about a few issues I’ve had on my mind, and just express my thoughts. I don’t expect it to end well but it has to happen at some point.

Relationship

  • I’m going to enjoy my relationship, we take for granted the simple things in life. This summer I want to start focusing on those things. Quality time will be top priority.

I’m determined…

Thanks for reading.