Yes...maybe not — Latina Point

*old thoughts I forgot to share*

I get into this really good groove where everything is all smiles. There’s really nothing wrong with the situation. We’re on the same page and things couldn’t be better. Then I start doubting and comparing, wondering and regretting, and then all these “what if” situations start nagging me and I begin to wonder whether I even want this.

Which is probably the worst thing I can do because I start thinking of all the possible reasons why I’m chasing this and usually end up at the worst one…I’m still getting over what happened. Which at this point shouldn’t even be an issue but some how still is.

Then I convince myself that I don’t want this at all and as soon as I get the opportunity I’m going to end it and call it a day because, really, it’s not a big deal. The only problem though is that it kinda is. But I’ve gone back and forth so many times that I can’t say with absolute certainty that in the next few hours I won’t change my mind again.

So I’m stuck in this limbo where I’m not exactly happy but I’m not really miserable either. How do I go from not knowing what I want to possibly taking a step forward in the right direction?