Late nights on the yoga mat

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I keep thinking I’m letting time pass me by. I’m wasting my “good” years. I’m taking things too easy and I’ll regret this when I’m older. But I’m 19, I’ll be 20 in October. I suppose it’s possible that I’m rushing things. Maybe I’m trying to grow up too fast.

I just don’t want to be 25 and naive because I never “let loose.” It’s a silly fear, but it’s one thing I just never want to be.

I’m in that gap between teenager and emerging adult. I’m not sure if I’m still hanging out on the teenager side or if I’m taking steps to being sorta kinda of an adult. Lately I’ve been contemplating this so much that I’ve decided to embrace it. I’ve given myself little things to do everyday, that will hopefully help me “find” myself.

  1. Read one chapter (2 if I have time) from Proverbs, every day. It’s the book in the Bible that focuses on wisdom. I have a bilingual Bible so I’ll read it in Spanish and English.
  2. Read from Eat, Pray, Love. I’m not giving myself a minimum reading amount, just a good chunk. When I finish the book I’ll see the movie and maybe her journey will help me understand mine…
  3. Write. I’m starting to carry my journal with me everywhere I go. It’s pretty thick so I’ll need a bigger purse to carry it in but if I have it with me I’ll be sure to write in it.

Finally I’m going to start spending some quality time with myself late at night. Everyone is asleep. The only sound in the house is my typing and the AC. So it’s perfect timing to do any of the 3 above and to just sit and think. There’s been plenty of times where I stare at the ceiling and come to terms with my life.

So maybe this summer won’t be incredibly exciting. No summer fling, no wild nights, no adventures. But it can be calm, which is something I’ll miss when school starts again and everyday is filled with required readings, papers, projects, and my never ending commute.

Paz!