College stupidity

Realized I can’t finish a reading tonight and this came to mind:

I hate the phrase “make time for it.”

If I could make the time to read all pages each of my professors assigns don’t you think I would. Because for all the hard work I put in HS and all the money I’m paying to get an education, I think it’s safe to assume that I want an A in all my classes.

At this point I’ve decided sleep isn’t something I want to lose in order to do absolutely EVERYTHING I’m assigned. Why? Because I won’t wake up on time the next day to take an hour and a half ride to class and comment on everything I read the night before. And even if I do wake up on time and make it to class, I won’t be awake DURING class, making the whole process pointless.

AND pulling a million all nighters just stresses the heck out of me and after a while my body shuts downs and weird stuff begins to happen forcing me to take even more time out of my schedule to solve them, and then everything is thrown off.

I am aware of what I need to read for what class and what I need to study. I know that some nights I’ll lose sleep, sometimes it will be in a row. But please don’t try to compare my work ethic or study habits to your apparent fool proof strategy.

Sometimes I like to vent, I like to put my opinion out there (hence tumblr) I don’t need people’s advice on absolutely everything I say (hence blocked commentary on FB) Sometimes I just want to say what’s bothering and have someone say “i hear ya” or even just nod…That’s all.

If I need help in organizing my life I usually ask for it upfront. But most of the time I just want someone to hear me out and acknowledge that I’m going to a rough time.

Thank you for those who know me well enough to open your ears instead of your mouths.