I was soo wrong

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Never read old emails the night before an exam…especially if you’re cramming.

So I’m reading emails from ‘09 and its incredible how different things look. Not only was I pretty busy but I tried so hard to appear responsible and professional that I completely forgot how to be affectionate. I was unbearable.

As I’m reading the emails I sent I’m wondering why I’m trying so hard? Why am I being so distant ,so indifferent? It really put things in perspective for me. No wonder things turned out the way they did.

If I ever seem fake, or I’m getting ahead of myself, please let me know. Sometimes I lose touch of reality.