Claustrophobic- A little insight.

I completely understand where she comes from. I know why she acts the way she does and feels certain things. I can forgive her for the things she says that are often out of line. I can even over look her hypocrisy but eventually it starts getting to me. I make an effort to keep certain comments to myself but when she takes it just a bit too far I’m forced to react, which usually means getting a really hurtful and surprising response from her. Our relationship isn’t a healthy one, and she’s not someone I can be around most of the time and still be happy. So I’m making a list of my options to make both our lives easier.

My main one has been shot down various times, mainly for financial reasons. But at this point I don’t care if it lowers my chances of buying a big house and getting a bunch of material things. I just want some peace of mind, I’m tired of having every little detail of my life controlled, judged, and commented on.

I thought at this point I’d be getting some encouragement. Not the shallow kind, like “good job you’ll go places” but something a bit more meaningful, less rehearsed. But I now understand that anything unfamiliar will be shot down despite how good my reasoning is. I need to get myself together and start making decisions based on what’s good for me.

Don’t make any assumptions about the “she” I’m referring to. The situation is astronomically more complicated than this post.