Conflicting thoughts

Slowing but surely becoming more hallow. I’ve been going through the motions but not really feeling anything. It’s not like I don’t want to believe, I do. It comforts me and helps me cope with things. Yet, I don’t understand it, I’ve only ever seen the surface.

I hope I don’t stop believing all together one day.

I’m praying, or maybe just hoping I can understand Him just a little bit better.